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Posted: January 5, 2013 Filed under: cancer, health, history | Tags: ashtabula, cancer, fields brook, my history, pollution, river of many fish 36 Comments »When I was young we lived near a stream called Fields Brook and the Ashtabula river it fed. Ashtabula was the Indian word for “river of many fish” and adults said once Fields Brook abounded with trout and bass and pike. By the time I was a teenager, we would run over the bridge that crossed Fields Brook because it was so foul smelling it scared us and made us cough and hack. When we swam down river which we often did, we would get all sorts of rashes. Now it is a super-fund site and I have cancer. Go figure.
One sunny Ohio summer day, Donnie and I, about thirteen or so, floated inner tubes about three miles down the river to where it fed into Lake Erie. We splashed and kicked under the big trestle bridge, meandering past trees and steep banks. We paddled past the yacht club with cruisers and sailboats with tall proud masts that chimed in the light breeze. As we neared the drawbridge which would slowly rise for the big cargo ships that came off Erie for the docks a cruiser captain hailed us. “Are you kids crazy?” Yeah, I guess we were.
I was back there a few years ago and now it runs clear and there is grass growing near Fields Brook. Some say it cannot be dredged because the mud is so full of PCB’s and heavy metals. They laid down a gravel and concrete base so the water runs above the poisonous soil.
Direct causal relationships are rarely proven, and I don’t really blame that stream for my cancer. It was just a beautiful place transformed to a dead grey steaming bubbling landscape worthy of an apocalypse movie. It may never be wholly recovered.
Some things are too precious to waste.

I’m sorry to hear that. Did you get some test results back?
looks like I am headed for round two. Round one last year. Might be a false positive.
That really sucks, I hope it’s a false positive
me too. We just cross each bridge as it is before us.
yes that’s all we can do. when will you know for sure?
A sad, sad reality in many areas of our once beautiful country, my friend. Men do more fiendish things in the name of progress than they do in the name of religion. Although, for many, it is the only religion they have left. May God grant you the peace of mind that exceeds all thought… Eric
thanks Eric — that’s always the dilemma, jobs vs pollution.
I agree that it seems to come down to jobs vs pollution. Lots of bright minds out there and we need to figure out an alternate economy, and alternate energy sources that could still provide jobs…I pray for healing for you Bill.
Hugs.
I grieve for what we do to our environment. In the end, it all comes back to haunt us. My thoughts and prayers are with you…
Bill I am truly sorry to hear the cancer is back, what a rotten thing to have to face once let alone twice. My heart and tears are with you and Jan, you are both strong and I know that our Lord is even stronger, He is the greatest physician so we shall lift you up in our prayers asking for your healing and strength. Stay strong my friend God loves you His faithful servant. ~~Len
Some things are too precious to waste…
says it all for me.
Live and love and hope and fight and know we read you and feel for you and pray for you and want you lay down a concrete barrier so that you are crystal clear again and can swim…
… the price we pay for “progress” …
some get rich by abusing the abundance of the earth,
while the otheres suffer from their action.
yes, it’s important to be stewards of the earth, not exploiters, but many were left jobless when the factories closed.
I expect in Asia now, many are grappling with this same problem.
Once I read along time ago that until we think as the waste not as a by-product but a product of the process
we will never own it.
perhaps ‘ownership’ is the problem ?
that’s a long response and I have to leave shortly, but I chose steward for a reason, one anyone who pays taxes understands you don’t “own things”, but I do believe in private property and capital.
Too many possessions begin to own you, it can become a terrible cycle.
I think we are on the same wave length with perhaps different accents … be well!
I’m so sorry ti hear you’re not well but I’m sending many wishes that I hope will change that and see you healthier than ever, forever.
thanks Michelle — I can feel it already!
and I know I can count on you for courage!
You most certainly can! I’m pleased my vibes are travelling so fast and far – I’ll keep them coming
This story reminded me of us neighborhood kids playing on the heavily sprayed golf course just down the street from me. We swam in the tiny water holes and wallowed in all the puddles after rain. Some (not me) ran after the mosquito truck that sprayed our neighborhood in the summers. Billows of pesticide pouring out of that thing. My best friend from those days is battling cancer (and winning so far) through alternative medicine and diet…no chemo for her. Her stage 4 cancer is in remission…her doctors are stunned. I wish you well, Bill. My healing thoughts are with you.
thank you, and three cheers for your friend!
do you believe in whispers on the wind
I hope so for to you I send
a breath of fresh air
sent with care…
cradled in a bubble of blue
sent with intentions kept high and true
wishing you the best that is yet to be
to continue on your earth-bound journey
Take Care…
You Matter….
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ladyblue….
your strength is racing through you as I read your thoughts here…
I think you be all you are meant to be and there is more of you to see…
Lady — I thank you – I am touched!
I believe in heart felt whispers upon the wind
and love and prayers that others send
each a piece and part of on another
friends and more and heartfelt brothers
You are beyond kind!
I hope there is less of me to see,
or on a diet I will soon be!
I didn’t realize this. I am so sorry, and disheartened to hear. How long will round two go for? And is there anything that I can do to help?
you already have.
I can do more, my friend.
did you ever stop to think how powerful the word friend is?
Few things are more precious than that.
I have very few. that I call “friend”. You, though far away and unfamiliar-have become one of my very best.
I am honored. I would have thought you would have many.
No. I am too busy with kids, school and work. Besides, only the cool people who talk about farts, kids, and red pants make it on my top list
laughing….
Touching story. I hope your cancer is under control and you are doing well. It’s funny to read your story today. My cousin posted on FB when we were kids and this truck use to ride through the neighborhood spraying pesticide to kill the mosquito’s and as kids we would run behind that truck to breath in the fumes. As kids we believe we are indestructible.
and young adults too.
True and then mid-life happens and our bodies turn against us and we learn to value the lives we have.
true – maybe the young trust too much.
Yes.