false bravado
Posted: April 10, 2012 Filed under: cancer, pearls of wisdom, poetry | Tags: age, cancer, fear, hope, I131, test results, thyroid cancer, treatement 4 CommentsEric Alagan has a very inspirational blog. Insightful and filled with out of the box thinking it often stirs up a quick response of a haiku or poem or short story. See his blog here: http://ericalaganfanclub.wordpress.com/2012/03/30/my-fear/
This post recently spoke about fears and was filled with honest responses from many people and I dashed this off.
I do not fear death for that will bring peace.
I fear to open my heart and have it rejected,
laughed at as folly.I do not fear the battle,
I fear the quiet after and my own thoughts.I do not fear age, I fear helplessness,
and meaningless, and pity.I do not fear tomorrow, but I fear for my children in the
world we have left them.
But I have been thinking of it, and as a cancer patient with a followup test in two days to determine if I need more treatment I realize it was dashed off with false bravado. I would rewrite it more honestly as:
Although I fear death for it will separate me from those I love,
I will not quail before it, for it will bring peace, and heaven.
I fear more to open my heart and have it rejected,
laughed at as folly.I fear the battle, but I will face the surgeries, the nausea
the pain with a warrior’s heart, but still
I fear the quiet after and my own thoughts.I fear age, I fear helplessness,
and meaningless, and pity,
being humbled by that unconquerable foe, time.
But I will stand before it with what dignity I can manage.I do not fear tomorrow, but I fear for my children in the
world we have left them, and yet still they fill me with hope.
Thanks — I appreciate your outside the box blog, and your testament to faith.
That is so well written and honest. Thank you for this sharing. I hope things are improving and the test confirms this
And thank you both for your wonderful words.
Wonderful!!
I too am a big fan of Eric Alagan’s blog!!
thanks for reading, and thanks for commenting.