Sunday started a low iodine diet, Monday the first of two injections of Thyrogen to stimulate my pituitary into tricking any cancer cells to absorb Wednesday’s planned radiation dose. It makes me smile with irony. Whoever wrote the form I will need to sign “I understand this treatment may cause other cancers” could only have been a lawyer.

The injection left me light headed and tired. So instead of work, I returned home to lounge on the couch watching cable TV. I watched scene after scene of automatic rifle fire, massacre and cold blooded slaughter. I wondered how many times similar scenes played, watched by brilliant and socially awkward kids, until the programming is implanted.

Enough of the morose, I wrapped a few presents ( silly ones, my favorite of course ) for the girls and pondered the true meaning of Christmas, and what we miss when we ignore it.

36 Comments on “programming”

  1. russtowne says:

    Hang in there, my friend. The world needs more like you. My world is brighter with you in it. Please keep shining in this world. I know that may be a selfish request on my part, but I make it anyway.

  2. Have a great Christmas, Bill!

  3. katkasia says:

    Oh my goodness! I hope really hope you are OK.
    Thinking of you.

  4. does this mean there’s still cancer?? i hope you recover quickly!

  5. boomiebol says:

    Praying for you…

  6. Can’t wait to be out there with you!! And having a week of family will be a great spirit-raiser, too, probably in two ways. 🙂 You know I’m praying for you and the entire process.

  7. Oh, Bill. Reading your words, I hurt for you. I’m sorry you are hurting. Sorry for what you are going through, what you have to go through, what those families are going through, and the perception you gave us of how we are programming our future killers with ingrained images in their subconsciousness…

    love and family, work and giving… hope and joy are the only true measures of our day and our lives.
    Not being a Pollyanna, but the cosmos is a yin-yang and sometimes it’s our job to keep the yang in balance.

    With love and respect and kindness

  8. Bill, I’m hoping your treatment will not wipe you out too much. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Hugs,

  9. ericmvogt says:

    You hang in there, Bill! Thanks for sharing a fragment of your life with us. Loved your iron-irony!!!!!! 😀

  10. emjayzed says:

    Wishing you well Bill x

  11. I am so sorry you must go through this again, but we know with Gods mercy and grace all is/will be well. Prayers my friend are said daily.

  12. jiltaroo says:

    I can only imagine what the coverage was like in the US. I wasn’t actually watching the news that day…and I’m glad of it. These things are over reported by the media and then we are bombarded with their diarrhoea of old facts and sensationalism. You make some good points here Bill…and that is not to forget what you are going through yourself. I wish you all the best and hope that your recovery is swift and kind. jen xxx

    • billgncs says:

      Thanks Jen, we have to be careful how we program our children.

      I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a big Matrix fan, and some of the others, but compassion and empathy are the tools that keep us complete.

  13. Clanmother says:

    I have often wondered about watching those scenes. As you know, I have been looking up quotes on “joy.” One that would agree with your post comes from Buddha: “We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves..” Seems like great minds are in agreement…

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